Title: Ryan’s Bed
Genre: Mature YA Contemporary Romance
Publication Date: January 22, 2018
I crawled into Ryan Jensen’s bed that first night by accident.
I barely knew him. I thought it was his sister’s bed—her room. It took seconds to realize my error, and I should’ve left…
I didn’t jump out.
I didn’t get embarrassed.
And that night, in that moment, it was the only thing I craved.
I asked to stay. He let me, and I slept.
The truth? I never wanted to leave his bed. If I could’ve stayed forever, I would have.
He became my sanctuary.
Because—four hours earlier—my twin sister killed herself.
I apologize in advance for the emotional review this is about to be because I basically cried the whole time I wrote it. This intro is truly a message to the author, Tijan, because it needs to be said. Tijan, I have read just about every single book you have ever written, but I can honestly say this is one of those books that changes you as a reader. You broke me in this book. I never ugly cry in books, but I was sobbing by the end of this one. You were not afraid to drop a bomb on me with the last sentence of the book. A bomb that really opened my eyes and had me looking at things in a whole new way. I was even sobbing during the readers note that you left at the end because it was perfect. I can’t thank you enough for writing this book and not being afraid to tackle the taboo topics.
The Story. The story opens up with Mac getting lost in an unfamiliar house because she can’t sleep, and ends up in Ryan’s bed. She didn’t notice it was his bed, but she felt this peace that allowed her to sleep while she was in his bed. We find out that her twin sister, Willow, had just committed suicide and she was the one to find her. Ryan wakes up to the surprise of his life when he finds Mackenzie in his bed. He doesn’t understand why, but he doesn’t mind her making herself at home in his bed. However, neither realize just how much they understand each other. They get each other on such a deep, dark level that it will change them both in ways they didn’t expect. The level of emotion and grief written into this book in incredible. It is such a well written story with the perfect flow. This was a brilliant book about loss, grief, coping, and healing. I felt like I was standing right next to these characters. It was so very real to me. This will be a book that will be in my top reads for 2018, if not for life.
Mackenzie. Oh baby girl. I can’t even imagine what it feels like to lose a twin, but, after reading this, I have some sort of inkling. That is how ingrained into this book I was. I went through every emotion with Mac. We were beyond sad, we were angry, we were savage, we were seeing Willow and talking with her, we were trying to keep our family together, we were avoiding and denying, we were faking it, we were trying to move on, we were trying to fit the pieces back together despite this hole that was constantly there. But we were also survivors, we were fighters, we were getting up everyday even on days when we felt like we couldn’t, we were living, we were loving, we were finding ourselves, we were finally being seen. I. Felt. Everything.
I can’t recommend this book highly enough. I recommend this book to everyone because it is important. I especially recommend it to those who love: tearjerkers, taboo subjects, books about teen suicide, romance, mature YA, and high school settings.
Overall Rating: ★★★★★★/★★★★★
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